Sooooo, life.... what else IS there, unless you arern't a Christian. I mean We're born, we die and in a split second we're with God! From one life to the next, no stops no breaks... pretty tiring, except in heaven you dont get tired.
anyway we had the 1st baptist youth pastor come to chaple today, I DIDNT KNOW THEY HAD YOUTH! well personally i didn't agree with him. he had some good points but it just wasnt right the entire time i was just thinking no no no! thats WRONG, incorect, faulty!!! AHHHHH!! I wonder what the administration thought!
well we have a band concert 2night! and we're playing really fun songs
which reminds me i better do my homework before we have to leave
luv ya lots
kate
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Life in a World Called Pain
Well today is Thursday. Cora's Funeral was two days ago now, it went well, and I cried. What do you say at a baby's funeral? Thank you Pastor Dave for a wonderful message.
Well today.
Today is my mom's birthday, and I and my dad are both home sick, and neither of us have a present for her.
Last night I cried myself to sleep for the first time in a long time. Last year after Jace and Jenna died I cried myself to sleep almost every night. But Since then I just couldn't get the tears to come. Last night at Newton Bible youth group I asked for prayer that we could find a new youth pastor at Grace, and I started crying! I'm really tired now, from crying all night.
Banquet is comming this Saturday!!!! I'm SOOOOOOO excited, partly cause it'll get my mind off all the bad things in my life, and just spend time with friends!!! But i still think it'll be a lot of fun!!! My dress is turquose black and SPARKLE SILVER!!!!!! i love sparkles!!! I still have no idea what i'm doing with my hair though... My dress is "short" meaning it only comes to my knees.
Yesterday I and some girls from Grace made a meal for the Whiteside family. They lost their baby, 22 weeks into the pregnancy, about three weeks ago now, it's been really hard. They are planning the memorial service which is very difficult.
So keep praying... for Cora's family, The Whitesides, Our youth pastor (that MAYBE God ISN'T calling him away), and that we'll find another youth pastor, For the Schowenwalds, and for our class, even though nobody says it we all miss Jace. And for me. Life is just throwing things at me left and right and i just need a day, or a week, to figure it all out. Thanx
kate
Well today.
Today is my mom's birthday, and I and my dad are both home sick, and neither of us have a present for her.
Last night I cried myself to sleep for the first time in a long time. Last year after Jace and Jenna died I cried myself to sleep almost every night. But Since then I just couldn't get the tears to come. Last night at Newton Bible youth group I asked for prayer that we could find a new youth pastor at Grace, and I started crying! I'm really tired now, from crying all night.
Banquet is comming this Saturday!!!! I'm SOOOOOOO excited, partly cause it'll get my mind off all the bad things in my life, and just spend time with friends!!! But i still think it'll be a lot of fun!!! My dress is turquose black and SPARKLE SILVER!!!!!! i love sparkles!!! I still have no idea what i'm doing with my hair though... My dress is "short" meaning it only comes to my knees.
Yesterday I and some girls from Grace made a meal for the Whiteside family. They lost their baby, 22 weeks into the pregnancy, about three weeks ago now, it's been really hard. They are planning the memorial service which is very difficult.
So keep praying... for Cora's family, The Whitesides, Our youth pastor (that MAYBE God ISN'T calling him away), and that we'll find another youth pastor, For the Schowenwalds, and for our class, even though nobody says it we all miss Jace. And for me. Life is just throwing things at me left and right and i just need a day, or a week, to figure it all out. Thanx
kate
Monday, February 9, 2009
Life Just Keeps Comming
Today I learned that my youth pastor, Jim Horning, will be resigning in July. Jim has ment a lot to me through Jr. High and my first year of High School. When my friend told me I was astonished! I cried for most of first hour, part of second hour and at random times through the day. Jim has taught me so much, even if he doesn't realize it, and not just through sunday school and youth group, but the way he lives his life. Watching him has given me a desire to do what God wants. I wish there was some way I could make him stay, but I know that he believes God is calling him somewhere else.
Cora Mac's funeral is tomarrow, we're getting out of school at 11:30 because of it. I woke up this morning and the first thing i thought was "Cora's gone" I would gladly have a full day of school if she were just alive now.
Last year I said some things I really shouldn't have, hurtful, mean awful things, to someone. I finally got up enough courage to say I was sorry and ask his forgiveness. AND HE THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE!!!! If you've ever had to ask for forgivness you pry know how hard it is to admit your wrong, and that you need to be forgiven, but then after writting that the person thinks your joking, its pure torment.
Jenna Schowenwald's birthday would have been tomarrow. The anneversary of the accident is next monday as i think i've mentioned before.
I once took a quiz one of the questions was "When lots of bad things happen what do you call it?"
it was multiple choice, and it was obvious what the "right" answer was. But really the answer should have been "Life".
Things happen, bad things, good things, things that arn't bad or good, like walking up the stairs, or going to walmart. I've given a lot of example of bad things happening right now, and they just keep coming, i've decided that i HATE Febuary. I guess i have plenty to be thankful for, and good things that are happening.
Banquet is this Saturday, I am excited about that, but it seems so trivial considering everything else.
I cant think of anything else. I can only think of bad stuff right now, because there's so much of it.
please pray for me!!
ttyl
kate
Cora Mac's funeral is tomarrow, we're getting out of school at 11:30 because of it. I woke up this morning and the first thing i thought was "Cora's gone" I would gladly have a full day of school if she were just alive now.
Last year I said some things I really shouldn't have, hurtful, mean awful things, to someone. I finally got up enough courage to say I was sorry and ask his forgiveness. AND HE THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE!!!! If you've ever had to ask for forgivness you pry know how hard it is to admit your wrong, and that you need to be forgiven, but then after writting that the person thinks your joking, its pure torment.
Jenna Schowenwald's birthday would have been tomarrow. The anneversary of the accident is next monday as i think i've mentioned before.
I once took a quiz one of the questions was "When lots of bad things happen what do you call it?"
it was multiple choice, and it was obvious what the "right" answer was. But really the answer should have been "Life".
Things happen, bad things, good things, things that arn't bad or good, like walking up the stairs, or going to walmart. I've given a lot of example of bad things happening right now, and they just keep coming, i've decided that i HATE Febuary. I guess i have plenty to be thankful for, and good things that are happening.
Banquet is this Saturday, I am excited about that, but it seems so trivial considering everything else.
I cant think of anything else. I can only think of bad stuff right now, because there's so much of it.
please pray for me!!
ttyl
kate
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Life's Unending Confusion
Febuary is a really hectic month, especially this year. It's my first year of high school so next Saturday is my first Banquet. My mom, and four friends have their birthdays this month. But thats not really what i was thinking of.
We learned this morning that Cora Mac has gone to be with the Lord. Cora was diagnosed with cancer about 2 or three weeks ago. I supose we should be thankful that she only had to endure the pain of cancer for such a short time, but her passing has been very difficult for her family. I didn't know Cora extreemly well, but i knew her family. It's hard to see friends hurting.
Almost a year ago Jace, Jenna and Ken Schowenwald were killed in a car accident leaving only Avery and Alyssa (twins) and their mom.
I dont get why God had to make these things happen, It's so confusing, why would God take a little 10 month old that never got a chance to live? Why would God change a family of 6 into a family of 3 in less than a minute? Why would God? Why? I guess we just have to accept that God loves us and knows what he's doing. At least I know i can see them again in Heaven some day.
Nothing can tell us why... not until eternity. We will never understand, if God had wanted us to he would. I send my love and compassion to the Mac's and Schowenwalds. I will never stop praying for you, be it 10 seconds from now or 10 years. I pray for Jess and Joel that God may bless them with another Child, though no one could ever take Cora's place. I cry, and pray with you now. just keep trusting God.
Forever and always
kate
We learned this morning that Cora Mac has gone to be with the Lord. Cora was diagnosed with cancer about 2 or three weeks ago. I supose we should be thankful that she only had to endure the pain of cancer for such a short time, but her passing has been very difficult for her family. I didn't know Cora extreemly well, but i knew her family. It's hard to see friends hurting.
Almost a year ago Jace, Jenna and Ken Schowenwald were killed in a car accident leaving only Avery and Alyssa (twins) and their mom.
I dont get why God had to make these things happen, It's so confusing, why would God take a little 10 month old that never got a chance to live? Why would God change a family of 6 into a family of 3 in less than a minute? Why would God? Why? I guess we just have to accept that God loves us and knows what he's doing. At least I know i can see them again in Heaven some day.
Nothing can tell us why... not until eternity. We will never understand, if God had wanted us to he would. I send my love and compassion to the Mac's and Schowenwalds. I will never stop praying for you, be it 10 seconds from now or 10 years. I pray for Jess and Joel that God may bless them with another Child, though no one could ever take Cora's place. I cry, and pray with you now. just keep trusting God.
Forever and always
kate
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)